Sierra's Diary

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

HI, IT'S ME, SIERRA. I am #blessed to be here in Luanda, but I am #stressed that I was put on a tribe with a bunch of old dude reps because I cannot effectively engage my flirt game. I am probably about 50% kidding.

This game, I am a physiology major from Oregon because I have decided that I'd prefer not to be instantly identifiable for a change (seriously, my real timezone is a fluorescent marker flag for anyone who might have played with or hosted me before). PST is a timezone that is way easier for me to fake than EST, and physiology is heavily integrated into my actual field of study, so it's easy for me to talk about without sounding like an idiot. I don't know how long I'll be able to keep the act up considering I just told my first PST lie and already feel guilty about it, but I guess now that I've opened Pandora's box, I'm in it for the long haul. Help. It's especially awkward because I just found out Tom is from Oregon and now I feel like I'll have to have the Wikipedia page on Oregon open constantly in case he starts talking about things I know nothing about. #sierrastruggles

Speaking of Tom, so far I've only talked to him, Chelsea and Osten. Chelsea is a dud, Tom is a character and Osten gives me serious JFP vibes. The rest of the tribe is AWOL right now (which may be just as well, because I'm triggered by Natalie Tenerelli players). Tom is making an effort to connect with me, but hardcore character players sketch me out and I don't know if I'm feeling it (though I'll take what I can get at this point). Chelsea asked me if I was scared about Shane being a returnee and I feel like she was trying to bait me into saying something incriminating, but honestly, I don't think of Shane any differently than I do the other players in this game. I don't think being a returnee in a particular ORG series gives you any sort of advantage, especially when you're the only one - in fact, I think it's more likely to fuck you over than help you at all. What I AM sketched the fuck out by is this weird idol twist. I do not need that stress in my ORGlife. I can only hope I'm on the Ojibwe side of this game pre-merge.

    ETA: FUCK THIS TRIBE COLOUR IS CUTE

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

I'm back. Tom is killing me.

Big Tom 

Pretty much 

And takin care of the missus and the young brats 

17 mins ago 

Big Tom 

Sounds like ye have your lil thinkin cap on 

A scrappy lil lassie if I do say so myself

I am not sure how long I can entertain this for

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

Yesterday I expressed my love for Drake, Kendrick Lamar and J. Cole in our tribe's group chat and Osten instantly identified me despite my PST lie. I hate my life. 

[Brandon]

Jun 2, 2015 1:39:27 GMT Sierra said:

Dear diary,

Yesterday I expressed my love for Drake, Kendrick Lamar and J. Cole in our tribe's group chat and Osten instantly identified me despite my PST lie. I hate my life. 

Kendrick is my boy

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

I am going to pretend the idol does not exist because it is causing me undue stress (although I guess I'd be more stressed if I didn't have any idea where it was). Tom just approached me wanting to form a core group consisting of him, me, Osten and Shane, and obviously I said it was a GREAT idea even though I don't really love it that much. It's not like I'm gonna reject an opportunity to be in the majority for the first vote.

Speaking of the first vote, this challenge looks like it's gonna be at a stalemate for a while. I feel like it'd be veritable suicide for anybody to try and score at the moment with so many predators online. Sadly, Natalie accidentally left herself logged in and went onto the boards after the challenge had started, so we're already down a number. I can see myself doing something like that, so I certainly don't hold it against her (though I can't speak for the rest of the tribe). If we lose, well... Chelsea is still super hard to talk to. I understand she's having some troubles irl but it's really difficult to hold a conversation with someone who only responds to 50% of what you say and with a complete lack of enthusiasm to boot (I'm sooo not here for two letter/single emoticon replies). Tom expressed the same sentiment about her, so maybe she'd be an easy name to push if it comes down to it. IDK I'M BEING POSITIVE WE'RE GONNA WIN SO I DON'T NEED TO THINK ABOUT THIS

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

I exchanged about ten lines of casual conversation with Natalie, and then she asked me this out of the blue:

Natalie Tenerelli 

Do you want to form an alliance to help each other get through this game?

I am not sure if she is new or what but I am sketched out. Girl, who are you?

[Sierra]

Dear diary, 

Jeff Varner 

I hate Cochran, so I love Jim 

Jeff is bae.

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

I'm starting to feel like I should have fought to be prey, but nobody on my tribe wanted to be a predator and I decided to be a team player. Shane was going on about how he's in AEST and would be watching the boards until 8am EST, but he completely missed 2 blue tribe members spam posting and we thereby (catastrophically) lost our lead 8 -) Like, if you're not gonna do it, then that's chill, but don't pretend that you are. If he had just said he was busy I would've paid more attention over the past couple of hours instead of just chilling watching Gossip Girl (xoxo). Smh

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

Our tribe just realized that 2 tribes are going to TC instead of one and our last prey just died. We have less points than Barra. IT'S OVER. BYE

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

I feel like an idiot for revealing to my "majority alliance" that I have the idol this round, but they were freaking out about Nat Ten having it and us needing to split the votes because of it and I just could not handle it. I don't feel like it should make me a target since I won't even have it anymore after this TC? It's just like an insurance policy at this point so that none of us get idoled tf out. Who knows though, people might freak out and boot me because of it lol

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

HI it's me again. I am in fact still alive despite having not updated in over 24 hours (SO OUT OF CHARACTER?). Today was the Good and Evil 9 finale and I obviously had to spend all of my ORG-delegated free time reading the entire Viewer's Lounge to make sure I was universally adored (I was pleasantly surprised, for the record. I was also CP instead of OTTM edgic-wise this time so I have NO COMPLAINTS). 

The vote went as expected, so that was good. I was a bit floored by this parchment though:



Like, how uncool and unclassy and unchill and just plain fucking rude. Natalie actually seemed super nice (if not a little over-eager and shady). I just don't know why people have to be nasty about things omg </3

I'm hoping we can avoid losing the next challenge because I really don't want to go back to TC again, especially now that I know I definitely won't have the idol this round. I feel mostly secure in my thing with Tom/Shane/Osten, but I'm worried that Jeff will be the next target and I don't want to have to defect this early (because I will to save Jeff - he's the one I've connected with best so far and the only one I have any real interest in going far with, with the possible exception of Tom because at least he's good for an entertaining yarn). Ugh whatever we just can't lose. I have a 2,500 word experimental report on alcohol dehydrogenase due tomorrow afternoon and I haven't even started collating my lab results for it, let alone made progress on writing the actual paper. I should probably go and make some headway on that now. Lates

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

FIRST OF ALL I'D LIKE TO CELEBRATE THE FACT THAT I JUST RECENTLY TURNED IN MY FINAL ASSIGNMENT FOR THE SEMESTER 3 MINUTES BEFORE DEADLINE. I really hurt my feet running to uni in dress sandals but it was worth it because now all I have left to do is frantic cramming for exams for the next 3 weeks and then I'm on midyear break. YASSSSSSSSSSSSS

In less pleasing news, we lost the challenge. Again. Obviously I'm still part of the "majority" so everything should be fine, but I honestly don't want to be in with Shane/Osten/Tom. I don't have fun talking to Shane, I'm pretty sure he made the nasty Natalie parchment (which I find really gross), and he also told people about my real timezone for some reason (not that I care that much but... why? There's obviously a reason I was bluffing about it to start with?), I've just never really clicked with Osten, and I find it very difficult to trust people who play up characters as hard as Tom does. Chelsea, on the other hand, I've ended up bonding really well with, and Jeff I've liked since the first time we spoke. I always had every intention of flipping away from the majority if we lost again because I knew Jeff would probably be in danger, and I've learned that Chelsea has the idol this round, which has put me in a better position to do so. I know it seems kinda stupid - like, it might seem more logical for me to just stay the course and vote with the majority to make sure I'm guaranteed safety at this early stage in the game - but I'm not always a super logical player. I don't like these people and I haven't really connected with them at all. Realistically, what kind of longevity do I have with people I just don't vibe with? None. It's only round 2, but I already know I have no future with this alliance. I obviously can't know for sure that I can trust Jeff/Chelsea, either, but I feel like they're greener pastures at this point and I think we might be able to figure something out together.

The plan so far is this: the majority plan to split votes between Chelsea and Jeff so if one of them plays the idol, the other will be gone in the revote. I'd defect and vote with Chelsea and Jeff to make it 3 - 2 - 1, sending (probably) Shane home. This saves Chelsea having to play the idol so early. I'm also starting to think that I could pull Osten in for the sake of having a definitive majority. Tom has approached Chelsea, Jeff and I this afternoon wanting to blindside Osten, which I'm not particularly interested in doing. Osten's head doesn't seem to be completely in the game and I see him as a number rather than a leader as far as the majority alliance goes. We could just go along with Tom (and probably Shane) and vote for Osten, but I'm not convinced that's the best option. If we can instead pull Osten over to vote with the three of us by showing him logs of Tom suggesting voting him out, it'd be good for us. It would suck to leave Tom on the outs because I like him (even if I don't trust him at all), but I think he's tightest with Shane at this point and there is no way I want those two running this tribe. Dangerous players can be hidden under characters.

[Sierra]

Dear diary, 

Ummmm this is super annoying. Where it comes to tribe challenges, I'm a pretty chill person and I tend to go with the flow and take whatever is left when it comes to delegating tasks. Tom flat out admitted that he was bad at graphics and took the slogan part (fair enough), Chelsea took the logo/names thing (not sure whether this was a bad call or not) and Osten took the pictures part, which is arguably the bit that requires the most editing and refining, leaving me with the background (ugh) and Varner, who is actually good with graphics, with the touch-up portion (not bad, but I don't think he'll be able to fix a disaster). I had what I thought was a pretty cool idea where we'd grab animal silhouettes and edit the castaway heads onto them and then have the names on the bodies of the silhouettes, kinda like this:



Now, I know Osten isn't great with graphics, so I don't know why he took the castaway pics portion. He says he only has Gimp and can't produce images that are any better quality than this:




It reminds me of one of those Buzzfeed baking fails omg





Like, are you kidding me? IF YOU ONLY HAVE GIMP AND CAN ONLY MAKE LOW QUALITY IMAGES THEN DON'T TAKE A PART THAT REQUIRES IMAGE EDITING. DGKSJAGKJ. He then decides it's "too hard and weird" to make the animal silhouettes and decides to do this instead



WHICH BESIDES BEING TOTALLY UNORIGINAL AND BORING IS REALLY FUCKING UGLY. I mean, he didn't even try to cut the heads out properly. I've stopped trying to offer my opinion in the group chat because I don't want to stir up trouble and he's obviously set on doing it this way (v. stubborn guy lol), but if we lose again, I think that's it for him. I feel bad for him because in the last couple of months I've witnessed him get booted pre-jury in Sausage Island 9 (he was inactive though...), Twisted 4 (kinda swapfucked but his social game was not cute) and Warriors 5 (he probably should've listened to Kass lol) back to back, but there's obviously something wrong with the way he plays if that shit keeps happening and I think it has a lot to do with him being inflexible/set in his ways and lacking the necessary aptitude where it comes to social interaction. I know he doesn't take criticism well and it's just painful ugh. I know this is my fault really and I have no right to complain - like, I should've fought harder for a bigger role in the challenge - but FUCK IT this is so irritating. I'm sick of losing and this sucks. I'm gonna make my own flag by myself for fun bye

[Sierra]

DEAR DIARY,

THIS ENTIRE THING LITERALLY TOOK 10 MINUTES AND YET SOMEHOW OSTEN TOOK LIKE AN HOUR JUST TO CUT OUT HEADS BADLY 

I'M SO OTTN RIGHT NOW

[Sierra]

Dear diary,

It's OK. Jeff the hero is here. I don't know if it'll be enough to save us but he sure made it a million times better than it was