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[Tom]

FML. Lost by 18 fucking minutes and I could have gone for another hour easy. Sigh

[Tom]

Yeah at this point, I am not using the other one. I am not in the mood right now to put effort into playing a character in confessionals. I am trying my hardest to ensure Cirie goes home. PLEASE for the love of all that is good let there be a swap or a merge next. Or if not, please let it be a challenge I can beast. Like. I am sick of losing and being at the mercy of a possible pre-game alliance. Although I do trust Matty implicitly at this point, there is something fishy going on. I just need a change in status quo. 

[Tom]

Its sad to see this fight. Not in the least because I actually really like both Amber and Sierra a lot on a personal level. But this is just uncomfortable and nasty. And quite unnecessary. Makes me want to not play alias games at all


... LOL who am I kidding. I will never stop playing these xD I am a masochist after all.

[Tom]

I am feeling a tad better about this game right now. Not that I had any personal problems with Amber. I actually really adore her as a person. In this game she was not on my side whatsoever. 

Now this next one looks like a merge. And possibly an endurance. Its criminal to keep endurance during the middle of the week tbh. If it REALLY is a merge, I will be glad to be reunited with Varner and Chelsea. IDRC about anyone else at this point besides those two, Matty and to a much lesser extent Sierra. So hopefully I can make some thing happen.

[Tom]

For the love of all that is good, please don't let Ozzy have the idol.

[Tom]

I am freaking loving pseudo-trolling Crystal in this challenge rn. LOOL

[Tom]

So I should confess?? STILL NO SWAPFUCK FOR ME BABY!!   This tribe is FUCKING perfect for me. In the immortal words of Big Tom "I AM THE PAWN! I AM THE SWING VOTE" And thank the freaking stars that Ozzy didn't get the idol. Because Jamie is immune. He is really the ONLY person besides Ozzy that I would even consider voting. So this vote should be slam dunk. I had talks with Varner. Assured him I wouldn't vote him. I had talks with Matty. Assured him I wouldn't vote him. And I won't. Ozzy tried to talk to me and I BSed him as best I could. I don't REALLY see any reason to vote me out right now. Other than Matty figuring out my alias and wanting me out for some reason LOL. I sure hope not.

On the other tribe, Crystalbot won immunity. I would assume it is Ublaz but Ublaz isn't silly enough to go that hard in tribal phase constantly. Plus he is a PW. IDK anyone else who is a "challenge beast". RJ?? Naaaah. I am actually really excited to make merge. But I think this tribal on that tribe is going to be a sad one because Sierra is potentially in danger. I hope she got the idol and she plays it. Crystalbot, Joaqinactive, Ciriewwwwwww and Stephwho?? are apparently going to be working together. I forgot why this is the case. But all the pre-game chatter that Amber threw out coupled with old tribal lines will make this happen. And its a shame. I kinda wanted to see what "The Evil 3" could do at the merge. Like a PROPER merge not the gut-punch that was T2 F13   

My hope is we either merge next or win again. Either way I think I am in a cool spot. On this tribe I am in between 2 duos. Chelsea/Varner and Matty/Jamie. Then there will be one person from the other tribe out of John and Sierra will come over to our side. ATLEAST for the first merge vote. I can't imagine anyone willingly wanting to work with Cirie. She is a ticking time bomb waiting to explode on the first unsuspecting victim. So here is my thinking.

Chelsea, Jamie, Varner, Matty, John/Sierra and I make a 6. First target Cirie because obviously Crystalbot will be immune for the first merge TC. Depending on whether or not Crystalbot wins IC. Either her or Joaqinactive goes here. I would actually like Joaqinactive to go. Keeping a "threat" in the game can pay off big time. And I am no slouch in challenges ... sometimes. I can do an endurance now as long as it is the weekend. So if this 5 can make it deep whatsoever, I think I should be setup for a nice run to the end. Lets see what happens. Wonder when jury will start so that I can start sucking up to people as I am voting them out.

[Tom]

Varner is such a great guy. Easily the most naturally gifted player in this cast imo. I am so glad I was able to get in his good graces early on. Any conversation with him flows smooth and seamlessly weaves in and out of game talk and otherwise. Awesome guy. I don't see myself turning on him anytime soon. Hopefully not at all. 

I think we merge now. If there is yet another swap, FML. My whole "claim to fame" of never being swapfucked might be in jeopardy. I mean if I end up on a tribe with Crystalbot, Joaqinactive, Ciriewwwwww and StephWho?? ... so basically where Sierra is right now, I am toast. There is no conceivable way I can save myself since I essentially trolled Crystalbot in that pseudo-endurance IC last round and Ciriewwwww has a hate boner for me.  Its gotta be a merge thought right? Also, jury has yet to start. You would think in a game with 21 players, jury would start at 12. NOPE. Latest the jury has to start at 9 imo so I will try my hardest at this upcoming IC. Be it tribal or individual. My fear with this group of people that are left is that lines are drawn very rigidly. I think. I am not entirely sure of the dynamics at play between Varner/Chelsea and Crystalbot/Joaqinactive/StephWho?? Chelsea told me something about what happened but I already forgot   But at any rate, I SHOULD be the middle man in all of it. I mean not entirely I guess. As long as Ciriewwwwww is in the game, I can expect that vote headed my way by default. If Crystalbot, Joaqinaactive and StephWho??? feel the need to stick with her, then I need to rely on Varner and Chelsea to have my back. And or Sierra, Matty, Jamie to not side with them. Which IDK why they would. I basically threw myself in the cross hairs of Ciriewwwwww just so Sierra, Matty and Jamie wouldn't have to deal with her vitriol. Yeahhhhh I am a real White Knight -_- SMH. Lets merge man. Please. Lets juts merge. K? Thxbye.

[Tom]

WELP! Did not see that coming AT ALL. Which is actually really funny for reasons I won't go into here. Mainly because it is an inside joke that no will understand but oh well. BRILLIANT twist. I am curious. Who in their right mind would join this tribe?? MAAAAAYBE Osten?? He would be the only one pretty much who SHOULD feel comfortable on this tribe. Other than him, no one else should be silly enough to come here. Besides Osten, I think the best chance of the returnee is either John or Kimmi. Debbie seemed into it, but IDT she has the time for a proper pitch nor the connections for a castaway vote. And then there is the third unfortunate soul who has to endure being on a jury for what is bound to feel like 10 years by the time this game will be over with such a huge jury. And to think I was compainin about the jury not starting just in the morning. Oh well. Shakes the game up a little. Should be exciting.

[Tom]

Ok so looking at these pitches. I feel Osten and Shane are front runners. I didn't watch the Charity video that Ozzy made but come one. Yeah you're a good guy but that is such a transparent sympathy gaining move. Its like a "cheap pop" in wrestling where the wrestlers use the name of the city they are competing in to evoke reactions out of  a crowd. Oh well. Debbie, bless her heart, tried. Tried hard. I wouldn't mind her being back. She talked to me for a while yesterday and today. But alas. That pitch pales in comparison to Osten's. Shane is a cuckoo. His out there approach is quite uncommon and entertaining to some so I can see him being a PW favorite and getting back in. He talked to me and told me how he wanted to work with me and all. And I'd be glad to work with him. He probed me a little about my alliances. I didn't offer much. But when I read Shane's pleas I suggested he go to the other tribe. Now I felt KINDA bad about this. Sending Shane over there basically guarantees Sierra goes home. And I also nudged Shane in this direction on how to take Sierra out. I feel like with Sierra out of the game there will be a little more breathing room. Matty has more incentive to stick with me. So does Jamie. And I know that Shane is an ally on my side but working from within the enemy camp. If this comes to fruition it would be amazing. I hope Shane doesn't blow this info up though. I don't think he will. I am the guy who stuck by him when he left. 

Varner and I touched base about who to bring back. He seemed surprised when I mentioned Osten. Now make no mistake about it. If given the chance, I would vote Osten right back out. I don't want to add to the pre-game shade but Osten back in the game and potentially meeting up with Sierra again could be bad. He then becomes the pivotal swing vote getting to decide between allegiance to Sierra/Matty or OG Penedo. And I intend to hog that spot all for myself. THat being said, Ostne coming back guarantees majority at the merge. And it means Frank finally makes the jury in a TSG game which would be a dream come true for good ol' John Wilson. Win win.

Matty also spoke to me a little about what to do if no one joins our tribe and the 5 of us go to tribal. There is no ifs, ands or buts in my mind. I vote Jamie because I will not go against Varner and/or Chelsea at this point in the game. I told him as much that my ideal option is Jamie and he expressed resistance to that. Rightfully so. I did bring up how Chelsea felt worried about Varner. Not sure if that was a good idea. I mean I trust Matty but I don't really expect him to choose me over Jamie or Sierra if it came to it. Even though I have specifically told him I would pick him over Sierra. And I would. Bit not over Chelsea or Varner. Not right now. 

All in all I am liking this twist a lot. I wish it would move sooner but I understand that the voting takes 24 hours. Whatever happens I am excited for the next round and the upcoming tribal. I feel alright and not in any immediate danger. We will see what happens.

[Tom]

You had one job Shane. One job. And that was to not come here. Sigh And he has the idol too. Why must my life be so damn hard in these. Now I gotta brutally blindside Shane  The guy will have been blindsided twice in one game if that happens. I feel bad. But its the way things are. 4 Penedo in amerge of 10 having just alienated Matty would be bad. Almost suicidal. I am not entirely willing to do that. On the flip side, if Shane plays the idol and takes out Jamie or Matty, its curtains for us all. This has already given me headaches. Tomorrow is going to be a HARD fucking day.

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[Tom]

If Shane plays the idol tonight, it will inevitably end up in me getting 8th place. I just fucking know it. Please work. Please please please work and let Shane go home tonight.

[Tom]

Did I just get outplayed by Shane?? FACEPALM

[Tom]

This is fucking depressing man. It was done. It was all set. Varner, Chelsea and I had cast our votes on Shane. Shane said he voted Jamie. Matty and Jamie were voting either Shane or Chelsea. I thought they would vote Shane but I wasn't 100% But then Chelsea messages me and says she is paranoid. I ask around and understand that Shane messaged Chelsea saying he is feeling paranoid and will play the idol. This scares the heck out of me. I instantly PM Shane trying to see whats up and make him feel better. I do my best tbh. I make actual logical arguments about why he shouldn't play the idol. But he ends the convo saying "I am playing my idol just to be safe" I panic.

I immediately tell Varner and Chelsea to change their votes to Jamie. I mean I am not going to let Chelsea get voted out at any cost. Varner and Chelsea both agree. I also tell Matty because I don't want to blindside him. Matty is my friend in this game. I wouldn't betray him like this. In all this commotion, it never once occurs to me to try a 2-2-2 split. Shane and Chelsea voting Jamie, Matty and Jamie voting Chelsea, Varner and I voting Shane. THAT WOULD HAVE WORKED. Varner and I would be 2 of the deciding votes no matter what. FACEPALMING AND CURSING MYSELF RN. Why am I so fucking stupid at times. 

Now turns out!! Shane din't play the idol. I felt like a moron. I still feel like a fucking idiot. Either Shane is a next-gen ORG player that uses top notch reverse psychology and tricked me. Or he is just a crazy but courageous son of a bitch who decided to put faith in the "Penedo 4" I honstly don't know at this point. I just HAAAAAATE that I got duped like that. It just fucking pisses me off. And we lost Jamie who was a great kid. I feel bad for Matty. The last thing I want to do is make him feel bad or make him doubt me. He already told me he felt bad and he doesn't blame me and all. But I blame myself. This is on me and I need to make it right. I am contemplating throwing the next challenge to get Shane out. Maybe stage a fake 3-2 vote with an idol play to make it look like the Penedo are divided so that we can gain more numbers or make something happen at the merge. That is if we ever merge. This is ucking depressing man. 

 Jamie. I am so very sorry. You are amazing and will be dearly missed.

[Tom]

Welp. We got the merge we all wanted. Except not so much. I don't know why I tried to win in that challenge. There was NO WAY I would have won that one. No way. Now I have to figure out what to do. Looks like its Shane headed out the door. Matty is really insistent on it and Sierra is adamant about not voting out any of Steph, Ozzy or Joaq since they saved her last round. Varner, Chelsea and to a degree I myself are worried about a potential 5-person block of Ozzy, Steph, Joaq, Sierra and Matty. My trust in Matty has not reduced at all. But I do know that Matty and Sierra would never go against one another. And Matty would choose to side with Sierra over me. That scares me but for now I do not have any choice. I think its curtains for Shane. And I have a sinking feeling this story does not end in any way other than me getting 8th place. FML.