Kimmi's Confessional

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 1: Let The Games Begin

Hello Host and PW's.

I decided to play as Kimmi, because due to the second chance voting I found my old love for her. I started to remember how much I loved her during Australia, so I thought why not play as her for once. This will be my first game in a long time -like 8 months- for me that's long. I was focusing on my final exams and didn't want to have a busy scheduele to block my ORG capabilities. So I decided to wait to sign up again to something. So last week when my exams were over, I decided to snoop around the ORG world again, and saw an ad from a game that started last year, but that I was unable to sign up for then because of my vacation, that game being TSG season 1 or 2. It seemed so good then, so am happy that it's still around now.

And I always say that once I've been a way for awhile and then come back to the ORG world, that my first game is always the one that I try my best in. Probably because of the excitment of getting to play again. I hope that will be the case now as well.

But now onto some game-talk. Yesterday was mainly talking to a lot of people. I really like it that cross-tribal communication isn't allowed, makes it less over-whelming at the beginning. And that the tribes are 7-7-7, makes it also less over-whelming to keep track with everyone. I really like that.

So yesterday I had a good talk with Cirie, Debbie, Ian and Joaquin. A lot of talk about Survivor, The Amazing Race, Game of Thrones, The Walking Dead... and even Pretty Little Liars, haha. That's one thing I think is so funny with this ORG community, we all have similair interests so it's less of a drag to start a convo because we all know what to pretty much talk about -and also enjoy-. I spoke a bit with Crystal, but we started talking a bit too late so I unfortunately couldn't really get such a good read on her. Our convo was mainly about Crystal in survivor and how she was robbed not being on the ballot.

But after some very good, hours long conversations with some people, I had to log off early. But as I was logging off I saw that Edgardo's -from the Novals tribe- confessional got leaked somehow. It was like literally right infront of my face. He was talking about how he was going to create this stereotypical character and that he was planning on starting a lot chaos... am sure not gonna trust him, haha. But at the same time I felt kind of bad, because he was revealing a lot of stuff that could potentially hurt him already. He was talking smack about Amber, and I saw that she was on the board, lol. So I don't really know how that slip up will affect Edgardo, but I don't predict it could be anything good.

I unfortunately couldn't talk to John because he didn't come online till after I was gone. But am planning on hopefully talking with him tonight.

Thinking about it now, I'm fairly happy with how everything went yesterday. Mainly Cirie, Ian, Joaquin and Debbie our bond felt natural. So am excited to get to talk some more with them tonight.

I know what you guys must be thinking... Like what a game-bot, haha. But once stuff get real in here I usually have pretty heated confessionals and am pretty vocal about what I think is okay and what I think is BS. I'm a big smack-talker when I need to be. But at this point, during the introduction stages I don't really feel the need to be forcefully bitchy, because at this point there is nothing to be bitchy about... It'll all come in time.

My general confessional length is usually this long, sometimes even longer. I'm a very wordy person, so a lot of this comes to me easily and I love writing down my thoughts when they are still fresh. I never let down confessional-wise. And I'll make sure to keep it that way. So expect alot more big confessionals to come when the game actually get's interesting. But that's it for now. I'll make another update during the challenge tomorrow. Am hoping to maybe get some alliance deals started tonight. I'm not going to force it, if they bring it up I'll be all ears. We'll just see how that works out. I'll keep you guys updated.

Bye for now.

[Kimmi]

So not much has happened really. I've been creating stronger bonds with my tribe mates... Yesterday I was really excited, thinking this was the best tribe ever and stuff. But now I feel kind of worried, the convos between me and my tribemates have degraded down to the 'how are you doing' type of convos... And I feel like they may have already started creating alliances with each other and that I'm just not included.

I don't want to sound paranoid ofcourse, but I've had stuff like that happen to me too much times already. The main example being in CYS10. Our tribe was so 'close' that I just stayed buddy-buddy until it was too late and I was voted off. I don't want that happening again. But I'm also afraid that if I ask someone for an alliance that they'd report back to their own alliance and start singling me out as a threat. But that right there is paranoid thinking... but it's very much a possibility.

We're probably going to win this challenge, so my plan is to whilst we're celebrating and stuff that I contact Ian, Cirie and Debbie about an alliance. I feel like I've made the best bonds with them 3. I'll try and create a majority consisting of us 4. And hopefully all will go well then. But that may change, I'll first bring up the idea of an alliance with Ian. Ask what he thinks, and go from there. Hopefully he'll be open to seeing where Cirie and Debbie stand. I'd ofcourse not mind if I were to fall into some kind of deal with the other 3 (Joaquin, Crystal and John) because I like everyone from this tribe. But when I contact Ian about it, I'm going to try and sound geniune and really hope that me and him could work well together. Because I definitely like him the most, with Debbie and Cirie being close behind him.

So my plans right now are kind of scattered and not very organized and kind of chaotic. As you guys can see (^^). But I'm trying to prevent that I actually start playing the game too late, like I did in a couple of my games prior. So I'm going to handle this smart and mention it in a moment of euphoria within the tribe. Will probably make whoever I ask more willing to make a deal then during one of those boring moments during the day.

But I'll play it smart, I'm not going to screw this up. I'll ask Ian and see how it goes from there. I'll keep you guys updated for sure.

And I've discovered a new pet-peeve... people who play as Parvati in ORG's... Like seriously she is the most over-played person ever. Like in every game I'm in she's in it. And the worst thing about it is, is that it's ALWAYS bore-whores that are either half-inactive or completely inactive. And they are always one of the first boots. I think it's so annoying that those little annoying fan-boys who don't know how to play ORG's waste the Parv choice because of their erotic fantasies and shit.

But then again, this game had an application, and Parv made it out of the so many. So I'm pretty sure this Parv won't be like that. Why she has been invisible this entire game though, I don't understand.

PS. Crystal's BLAZING SPEED with this challenge was fuckin epic!!

[Kimmi]

Yay, we won the challenge by a landside! Wootwoot!

Well it worked out! Am so excited that it did. Ian practically came to me and ask me about it. I had to make the finishing touch, by asking him if he'd be interested in working together. He was very enthusiastic. And we've got some goood plans up our sleaves. So I'll go down the list for what we're planning to do so far:

• Our first plan is to get Cirie in. We were talking about who we liked most in our tribe. I mentioned Cirie and Debbie, and he mentioned Cirie and Joaquin. So we thought why not ask Cirie...

We decided one of us would ask her. We hadn't said who yet. But imagine if it were me. So it would go like this:

• I talk to Cirie like I always do. With that charm... and 'hey girl' type of attitude. Kind of gettin in the flow, ya know. And then ofcourse have a bit of small talk about whatever before asking her if she'd be interested to work together. And assuming she says yes, I'll make it seem as if it's me and her alone. And when we start talking about potential allies, I'll mention Ian. She'll probably be happy about that. 
  
  
• I'll then ask HER to contact Ian about it. Make HER feel in charge and stuff. She'll then come back to me and say that Ian was interested (if all goes as planned)
  
  
• And then we'll most likely make a group chat where the 3 of us start discussing stuff. That's when we ask Cirie to give a recommendation on who else to bring in. To make her feel more in-power.

So our main plan is to make Cirie feel very comfortable to make her feel like the 'king on the throne'. But what Cirie doesn't know is that me and Ian are actually the core 2. We're ofcourse making up this act to make her feel more comfortable around us. 

Once Cirie comes online I'm fairly certain that that's how it'll go, like exactly like that. I'll inform you guys if it goes differently. But after we have Cirie in, we'll start working in on the others (whoever else we plan to bring in). I'll ofcourse also inform you guys how that works out.

But me and Ian were still talking some more... talking about IF someone were to contact me or him about an alliance deal. This what we'd say we do:

• Imagine it's me who gets asked by Crystal, to be in an alliance with John and Joaquin. I'd then say yes... make them feel like they're the boss of me. And I'll act like their goat, or whatever role I feel is fitting at the moment. And get them to think I'm 'in their pocket'. While in the process I'd be informing back to Ian (NOT the entire alliance me and Ian -hopefully- formed by then) but JUST Ian. So that he'd get the inside look from their side as well. I'd be playing a double agent. And he said he'd do the same if he gets asked. Some inside-info. 
  

I feel like this will work out really well. Ofcourse that last dot is just a scenario just incase something like that were to happen.

But yeah, I feel as if I've said everything there is to say for the moment. I'll ofcourse make an update tomorrow again to let you guys know how stuff stand around here. I hope you guys enjoyed this post. 

Bye for now.

[Kimmi]

So it's like, I spoke to Cirie about it. I ended up being the one to contact her about it. 

So it went pretty much as I said it would. I'll go down the steps on how it actually went, my post above was predictions, this is how it actually worked... Do I sound a bit to RHAP'ish now? With all these ways and approaches to stuff... and completely analyzing everything.

But here was how it went:

• So me and Ian were talking, and we saw on the board that Cirie mentioned that she was on her way home. So me and Ian started talking big-time strategy on how to approach Cirie about this alliance. 
  
  
• So the plan ended up being that I went up to Cirie, and asked her about the bonds that she formed and who she trusted and all of that. Luckily Cirie brought up Ian, Debbie and Crsytal. 
  
  
• I told that to Ian, he was pretty happy as well. I then told Cirie if I should 'contact' Ian about the plan of an alliance. She was stocked, she originally wanted an all-girl alliance... but I gradually pushed Ian in the mix, smoothly without sounding pushy, because she's now totes happy about the plan... while talking to Cirie I ofcourse pretended like I didn't already talk about it with Ian. 
  
  
• After that, I messaged Cirie that Ian liked the idea. I didn't even ask him anything, cause I already knew what he thought about it, all I told him was how to act and what knowledge he 'supposedly' had when Cirie contacts him. Because we're still holding out the act that Cirie needs to feel like the queen.
  
  
• So then Cirie asked me if she should contact Ian, to talk about the plan and stuff. And I was like, 'yeah, he'll appreciate that.' Haha, and withon 2 minutes BOTH Ian AND Cirie were sending me 'copy and pasted' convos they were having with the other. FROM BOTH SIDES! Like how dope is that, haha.
  
  
• But we know have a group chat with just me, Ian and Cirie in it. Our next plan is to get Crystal in. I'll post tomorrow how that went.
  
  

So I'm stocked about our plan, like really excited about everything. But Ian keeps on mentioning that he doesn't trust Debbie. I think the woman is nice, but I don't particularly feel as if she NEEDS to be in our alliance. As long as we can get Crystal then I already feel good. But Ian is being pretty vocal about how much he dislikes Debbie, he even told Cirie that - I saw that in the convo he sent me of him and cirie -. So that's kind of worrisome, because I don't want Debbie getting suspicious. If anything, I wanna grow closer to Debbie, not make her feel suspicious or anything. So I'm gonna have to deal with that. I'll keep you guys updated about that story as well.

I know it's another major ass update, but like I said I'm a wordy person. And I like writing stuff when the situation or idea is still fresh in my mind. Ofcourse now I'm probably posting more than usual because of the alliance making stuff. 

But I hope you guys liked yet another lengthy update.

Oh and one more thing that kind of made me feel like a bitch, was this (chat with Cirie):

Chris Barkley's iconChris Barkley
yay
this is awesome
I think this is a great start
and we won the challenge
=) so like we can keep talking and about reaching out to crystal and debbie maybe in future, but for now this is an awesome start.

Kimmi Kappenberg's icon
Omg yeah, such a good start! Am very happy about it as well! :-D

37 mins ago
Chris Barkley's iconChris Barkley
yay i got to do a confessional nowz! lol

Kimmi Kappenberg's icon
Haha, right on! Me too! I wrote in my previous one that I was nervous to ask you, haha. But am also gonna write that all went well now.

Haha, I didn't mention anything about being nervous to ask Cirie in my previous confessional. Just told her that to make her think 'how nervous I was' and stuff like that, haha. Little white lies (even at allies) are nessasary to get through this game, espicially these crucial early stages. And I don't mind making um if it brings that person closer to me.

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 2: Settling In

Crystal agreed to be in our alliance, and was also very enthiousiastic about it. It was good to hear she was on-board. 

Cirie and Ian were working on her whilst I was gone, so it was a pleasant surprise to hear that she was on-board once I came back. Once I came back, me and Crystal had a conversation talking about how nervous we were to contact each other - that we didn't know if the other would think we were trying to hard - me speaking as if I hadn't already been apart of the alliance 2 days prior to her. Haha, so that was kind of funny.

I feel as if I'm doing a pretty good job. I'm maintaining the stability in my own alliance, whilst still keeping Debbie, Joaquin and John very close... Who knows what can still happen between me and them. It will come espicially handy during a tribe swap if I continue to have good bonds with them. But for now, my core is Ian and Cirie, with Crystal being the third. We have a majority, so I am very happy about that.

But there is 1 thing that I am finding to be a bit sketchy of Crystal... our conversations.. if it isn't about strategy, it feels very forced. And we can sometimes go hours without responding to one another because our convos are so damn dull. We talk about TAR, Survivor and all of that, but it isn't the same as when I talk about it with Ian or Joaquin. So I feel as if our convos feel a bit forced... and a forced feeling within an alliance is never good.

Crystal wouldn't have been my first choice to be in an alliance with, I would have rather wanted Debbie. But Ian was making it clear he dislikes Debbie, because of stuff he has heard from her..

Wait, wait... here's a message he sent me:

i would be cool with most. just a little bit wary of debbie though because she says she used to play like 3-4 games at once haha. idk whether that is impressive or very intimidating lolol

I once played like 8 games at the same time. . I was one crazy motherfucker then -that was when I was just new to orgs and couldn't get enough, and went a little overboard... just a little.

But anyways, I thought that was a weak reason to not trust someone. And I don't think someone playing in multiple games at the same time makes them smarter or more strategic. I predict there is some bad-blood between Ian and Debbie from a past game and that he's just not saying it.

I like Ian, but sometimes he comes across as too innocent, a very happy cheerful go-lucky kid. I think he has some other stuff hidden. So I will keep a very close watch on him, I won't mention anything to anyone. But I feel I should keep this in mind, and try and create a Plan B incase he ever becomes to transparent that I can see his act or whatever. But at the moment, I'm quite happy with our alliance and am planning on keeping that bond exsisting throughout the game, but it never hurts to be careful, right? As long as I don't over-think stuff and start talking about those type of stuff with other peeps, then I think I'm okay.

And it sucks about this challenge, it's going to be like 4AM where I am now by the time the challenge starts... I'd wanna stay up, and normally would, but I have a busy day tomorrow. . So that kind of sucks, cause I'm usually quite good in live challenges. Guess I'll just have to prove my prowess to them later on. . Am glad I have an alliance though to fall upon if we were to lose.

And ay, I was right about Parvati!! 

And I've discovered a new pet-peeve... people who play as Parvati in ORG's... Like seriously she is the most over-played person ever. Like in every game I'm in she's in it. And the worst thing about it is, is that it's ALWAYS bore-whores that are either half-inactive or completely inactive. And they are always one of the first boots. I think it's so annoying that those little annoying fan-boys who don't know how to play ORG's waste the Parv choice because of their erotic fantasies and shit.

And long behold... she's the first one to be voted off. I laughed so hard when I saw Parvati was first off. Really confirms my quote made above.

[Kimmi]

So am now on AIM talking about the vote. Am speaking to Crystal, Ian and Joaquin. The others aren't online. 

Yesterday was a really good day for me, in the context of the game then. Me and Cirie really bonded over a survivor simulation over at BrantSteele. Haha, it was pretty weird. The night prior I had a bunch of different seasons, and yesterday was the day that I was gonna do the AS version of those seasons I did the night before. So I explained to Cirie everything that happened, and she was somehow very invested on what the outcome of the AS season would be. So that was pretty cool, and was good for our bonding too. Since we were making bets on who'd win, blabla. Haha, it was quite fun actually. 

But anyways, back to the talk about the vote. I think you guys can almost guess who Ian wanted out... he was VERY vocal about wanting Debbie out that I was laughing out loud. Like seriously he seriously needs to calm the fuck down. In our group chat (between me, Cirie, Ian and Crsytal) Ian was literally spamming the chat with messages that Debbie sent him... it was so transparent and desperate.. that kid must HATE her, like seriously, Debbie must have screwed him over hard in the past for Ian being so against her.

Or Debbie is Ian's temptress. Like Mikayla was for Brandon in Survivor SP. 

Here's Ian's reasoning for wanting Debbie out now, lol:

haahh okay ! yeah i would be fine with any, slight preference for debbie

did crystal tell u? yesterday

we were asking everyone who they talked to least or wanted out

everyone gave us names except for debbie lol

all she said was stuff like "i love everyone"

she never gave any names lol

Yeah... those are his motives, lol. Sooo transparent, there has to be some bad-blood between them I just know it.

But yeah, this round it was bound to be Joaquin, John or Debbie to go, so I really didn't give a shit out of the 3 it was. I like them all, so it makes it a bit harder, but it's a game so these moves have to be made. I didn't feel like arguing with Ian because why would I want Debbie in over John/Joaquin if I like all 3 of them just as much? I wanted Ian to have the satisfication to see Debbie go so he can shut up about it, haha. So I sheepishly agreed... when I really want someone to stay... TRULY want them to stay, I'll make that known. But Debbie is such a non-entity to my future game plan's that I don't mind voting her out now. Espicially if it makes Ian shut up about his 'she's sketchy' type hatred towards her.

So my vote will be for Debbie, I'll be making my parchment in a sec. 

So yeah, my convo with Joaquin is about Survivor again, that's the thing I like most about Joaquin, his knowledge about Survivor is just as broad as mine, and he is so new to these games it's adorable. So I usually really enjoy our convos and appreciate it when we do talk. But hey, it's the same with the Debbie/John convos. I don't think I've ever liked a tribe so much before.

So yeah, just thought I'd make a little update before episode 2 was over. Gosh, this round went by soo quick. Giving you guys a little insight about who the vote is going to be and why. 

Hope you guys enjoyed it again.

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 3: Creepypasta

So Debbie was the one to be voted off, as planned. It was also unanimous which was pretty dope considering that Joaquin and John can't figure out about our alliance with such unified votes. But a couple of hours before the vote, Debbie was all paranoid and shit, and talking to literally everyone. It was fucking creepy man, like every half-hour I'd get an IM with her screaming for help. I was like: 'Ew, leave me alone.' I didn't say that tho, I just tried to satisfy her with what she wanted to hear.

But yeah either way she was annoying as fuck when she knew she was in trouble. So I'm glad shes out now. And to top it off, she decides to be even more creepy by literally staying on AIM 24/7... like her spirit is haunting us, making us not forget that we voted her ass out. It's bizzarre. She's even online as we speak, if she had been shown online 24/7 before she was voted out, I wouldn't think much of it. But yes, I find it creepy when she's hardly ever online, and then when she's voted out, she just lingers on. 

Now I hope there isn't a redemption twist or whatever, cause like Debbie hates us now, haha.

And I actually continiously keep getting a better bond with Joaquin, I've even been thinking about making some sort of side-deal with him because I just love his company so much when he is around. But I don't know for sure yet, as that wouldn't particularly be smart. I'll keep you guys updated on how that devolps itself.

And I was just talking to Ian on AIM. And he asked me what I was doing, and I told him I was reading creepypasta.. And then he asked: 'what is that'. Haha, as someone who's a big fan of Creepypasta, I explained it to him. But was like dumb-founded that he didn't know what it was. Like if you don't read it but still know what it is, yaknow I can understand that. But just not knowing what it is in this internet-age is really bizarre in my opinion but whatever. But apparently he hates everything that's remotely creepy. So probably more understandable that he never heard of it. But it was the birth-place of Slenderman, like come on, you have to know that.

But wait, it get's better. He wanted to change the subject because he was 'creeped out'. And I was like 'Wtf, how can me mentioning a site creep you out.'. Well I didn't actually say that, but I thought that. So whilst changing the subject I asked if he has ever seen Family Guy. And he said NO... -.-. I don't know if he's living under a rock or not, but I find that even more weird then him not knowing about Creepypasta. But he mentioned that he watches South Park and reads schtuff on Reddit. So it's not completely hopeless that he has no modern-knowledge. 

But now there is a challenge, one that I (sorry host) HATE. I always dread these challenges, haha. But now that we're busy anyways, may as well try our best. 

For the rest there wasn't much strategizing going on, so beside my explaining of how paranoid Debbie was, and me ranting about Ian living under a rock. This confessional was rather pointless. But I still felt like I should give you guys an update. 

Hope you guys liked it.

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 4: Tribe Swap

Last episode was quite slow, also the reason why I only had 1 post that included a pretty lame un-related title. So am sorry for that. 

But this episode for sure won't be slow, because there was a tribe swap, I was kind of expecting it. But then I always had to think about what people say... ya know 'expect the unexpected', so I was myabe thinking the tribe swap may be later. But then if I was expecting that unexpected thing... then wasn't I already expecting it? Okay whatever, I'm thinking about it to much. I'll go onto game-talk now.

So in my old Barra tribe, I was in an awesome position with a strong alliance of 4 consisiting of me, Ian, Crystal and Cirie. So I was kind of annoyed that my plans are kind of put on hold for now (maybe even forever) because of the swap. I was really getting along better with Crystal everyday, and Ian has to be my closest ally, so it's kind of sad to seem them over there. And am a bit sad that I won't be able to talk to Joaquin anymore.

But John and Cirie are now on the NuBarra tribe, I am ofcourse really excited for Cirie to be here, for obvious reasons. But am a bit weary of John, I still make sure that I talk to him atleast once every round, so I still have that bond with him. And I never excluded him from anything and tried to make sure he felt included in our tribe chats, so I'm just hoping he is going to stick with Cirie and me, because it would be a huge dick move of him to flip sides or whatever.

Ian posted in the tribe chat 2 days ago that if a tribe swap were to occur, that us Barra peeps should stick together. I thought it was a really good move of Ian, and was proud of him once I saw that he went for it. John and Joaquin still have no clue about my alliance with Cirie, Crystal and Ian because of how well we covered it up to make Joaquin and John feel welcome. Just comes to show, never become cocky once you have a majority, because twists like this can bite you in the ass. So I'm glad I created a good bond with John and Joaquin both. I'll make sure to talk to John tonight and make sure he knows the plan to stick with me.

And now onto the other tribe members. They are Jamie, Amber, Matty, Tom and Sierra. I always got good vibes from Jamie because he liked literally every single post I made during challenges and announcements, so I'm excited to get to know him a bit more and actually interact with him. I'll tell you guys how that went.

This morning I spoke with Matty. Me and Matty were talking about staying up late, and how we thought it was annoying that elders act all superior and look down on you because they don't approve of you staying up so late. Haha, so we bonded over that. We spoke mainly about staying up late and sleeping in till riduculous times, and some other stuff. So mainly 'get-to-know-eachother' small talk. But it was still fun because just like me, I noticed that Matty writes really long messages as well, and isn't one of those 'k' type people that don't really shine off any enthiusiasm. So that was a good surprise, and I personally am excited to get to know him some more tonight.

I also spoke with Sierra as well, we both bonded on that we live in different time-zones. So that was pretty funny... I know how it feels to be voted off early because of fucked up time-zones, so that was something she could somewhat relate with. She then mentioned that she played in the Sausage Island series.. me, being a big fan of that series and look up to the hosts, was very excited about that, so we had a really detailed conversation about both of our pasts with the series, so that was pretty cool and I really enjoyed that!

And Amber/Tom I haven't had the shot to talk to yet. But when I do I'll add it in my confessional how that went.

Now I am hoping that what Ian predicted doesn't come true. He predicted that two tribes may team up and gang up on former Barra members because we had 6 left and them 5. That would honestly piss me off. And I'd be so Silas'd at that moment, haha. But I am going to try and create good bonds with my new tribe-mates, and help out in challenges to prove my worth and maybe even create new alliances. I'll update in my confessional how all of this (and everything I wrote above) works out. 

Tribe swaps are nerve-wracking but so interesting as well. They bring in so much new dynamics that honestly make the season more interesting. I honestly believe that Redemption Island and South Pacific would have both beneifitted from a tribe swap, because both of those seasons were bore-fests with only 1-2 blindsides which really sucked and on top of that both had crappy edits. So I appreciate the host twisting stuff up to make sure something like that doesn't happen. For example Rob having complete control of his tribe and not letting any of his tribe members talk to anyone. Whilst if there was a tribe swap that season, there would have been a lot of different dynamics between the cast. 

But yeah, I'm side-tracking now. 

Oeh, Jamie is online now. I'm gonna go and see what he's all about. Wish me luck.

[Kimmi]

Gosh, it's in the middle of the night, and am laying here in the dark listening to creepypastas and being afraid out of my mind. Haha, needed a break cause I was starting to question my sanity from all the creepiness, and was getting paranoid Jeff the Killer would be standing over me with that creepy ass grin telling me to 'go to sleep'... Peeps who know that story know why that term is soo fucking creepy. But anyways, thought I'd take a quick break and write another confessional while listening to Owl City to get a break from the creepiness before I continue in a second, yes I am crazy as fuck, but I love scaring myself with those types of stories, don't know why honestly.

But now to the game. I spoke with Big Tom and Amber. Now let me say talking with Amber is like talking to a fucking brick wall. She is the most bland person ever, and it doesn't help she takes ages to react. 

Big Tom is awesome though, I have a feeling he is Alex Stein (aka Ted from Sausage Island and the host of EpicSbb and GSurvivor) because of how in-character he is. The only person I know who is so creative with making OTT personalities is Alex, I even thought for a split second I may be talking to the actual Big Tom, haha. That's how real it seemed. But he's cool, I always enjoy convos with people like that, love going with the flow of the character they are trying to build. Espicially during the introduction stages, haha.

Me and Sierra tho during the challenge <3. That was the most hilarious thing I have expierenced in quite a long time. We were doing those cycles, and whilst doing the challenge I had my phone next to me, I was gonna get a phone call any minute on if I was going to be able to graduate or not. So I was an anxiuos mess. And messed up like 6 times, while talking with my class-mates, all wondering if we passed the tests and stuff. And everytime either missing the cycle post or writing the wrong words, haha. Such an inconvient time, and then when I finally had it right, Sierra had it wrong, haha. So it was just a mess. During one of the waits between cycles, my phone rang. And I passed the tests! So was really excited about that obviously, because it was the closure of my high-school life. Very bitter-sweet. Me and Sierra bonded (kind of) because of that whole ordeal, she thought it was funny on what a mess we were, but she totes understood, atleast she said that to me. Same day as Jeff's birthday btw. Hehe

My bond with John is the same, I'm still talking to him obvs, and he's a sweetheart. But I still can't completely get a good read on him. Cirie and I's bond is only growing stronger (We're still in a strong alliance. Hoping Ian and Crystal will survive over there on the other tribe). Still bonding over lots of different stuff. She's just a genieunly nice person, and I really enjoy her company.

Me and Jamie talk daily, he's quite different then I imagined. I expected him to be a more reserved type person who was just a nice laid-back dude. But talking to him he shows a lot of naïve attitude. But I really enjoy it when we talk about TAR and Survivor. And if I had to choose to make an alliance with one of these new people it would probably be Jamie because of our bonding and because we talk so much each day. 

Haven't spoken much with Matty though since the last time. But will soon again!

Still no talk about alliances though, but I guess since we won the challenge it's okay for now. But I'm def gonna continue creating bonds with people. 

And that challenge was so hard, haha. So awesome we won by such a close battle. I stayed up till 4AM to help in that challenge, and stayed up till 6AM with the poster challenge, haha. If that doesn't show dedication I don't know what does. I think my tribe-mates appreciate it. I NEVER shove it in their faces though about the time-difference though. But we all bonded pretty good with this challenge, so that was pretty good!

Thought I'd make this update before this round was over. As this was a pretty eventful round with all the new dynamics and stuff. Hope you guys liked this confessional!

And YAY at final 15!

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 5: Here We Go Again

Okay, I just wrote a big ass confessional and it ALL got deleted because Proboards was acting like a bitch. Like that really made me pissed off, as it was by far my longest confessional I had written to date. But I’ll try my best to revive it, although it may not be so well written as I had originally written it, as you can understand it’s quite annoying have 2 hours work of writing being deleted. Okay so here it goes (hopefully it doesn’t get deleted again):

So yesterday there was a lot of strategy talk.

I was talking to Big Tom yesterday about stuff, and then he mentioned how intrigued he felt by me and that he enjoyed listening to all the stories I had to tell. So he then asked me who from this tribe that I all liked. And I told him I liked everyone from this tribe, admitting that I found John and Amber to be pretty bland. He found that quite funny and agreed and started laughing. He then told me he’d like it for me and him to work together. I ofcourse enthiusiastically said yes, because I also love the convos I have it Tom.

A little while later he asked me who we should get on our side. He then admitted that he has already spoken a little strategy with Jamie/Sierra/Matty and that he’d like to get them in as well. I have already been quite vocal in my previous confessionals how I enjoyed my convos with Jamie/Sierra/Matty/Tom/(Cirie) the most. So I mentioned to Tom that I’d like to get Cirie on board as well. He was fine with that. So we made a plan that I’d go and bring it up to Cirie and Jamie, and Tom would bring it up to Matty and Sierra. Which I thought was a good plan.

Big Tom also agreed that John and Amber would be easy vote offs if we were to go to Tribal Council before the merge.

So if everything goes as plan then I have Me/Tom/Sierra/Cirie/Jamie/Matty on this tribe, and –hopefully- Crystal and Ian still from the other tribe. So once merge hits, and I still have such a wide variety then I have a lot of options to go through. But let’s take it one step at a time. For now, I’ll take you guys down what I have done so far with what me and Big Tom agreed on yesterday, and how I + the other received it:

So I spoke to Jamie, and he did agree but it was literally the most bizarre strategy-conversation in my entire 4 years of ORG’s. Like this one definitely tops um all. Here is the convo:

I loved everyone <2
<3
I love talkative peoples <3
and you ??

Kimmi Kappenberg:
I like um also all a lot. I also love talkative people.  I've been enjoying our conversations a lot!  We both have such similair interests, it feels like a pretty natural bond. I was wondering if you'd maybe be interested in working together.

Jamie Newton:
sounds good
girl
Kimmi and Jamie <3
who would thought this ?
haha

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Haha yay, am so glad you agree! And yeah, what an awesome duo.

Jamie Newton:
xD
let's talk about colors haha
my favorite color is def blue or red
and yours ??
I hope second chances merge isn't black though lmao

Let me repeat that, I told him I was happy that he was willing to work with me, and literally right after that he said: ‘let’s talk about colors’. Like jeez, the way he changes the subject is painfully cringe-worthy. I decided to just talk about whatever he wanted to talk about afterwards without bringing up the working together thingie, as I didn’t want to sound pushy or make him feel uncomfortable. But the fact he was willing to work together is already good, but the fact still remains that he made it seem clear that he didn't want to talk to much about it. I may have a theory on why he acted like that, well 2 actually:

• He either doesn’t know how he comes across and didn’t mean it the way he did.
  

• Or he already has some type of deal including Amber (I didn’t mention anything about Tom/Sierra/Matty/Cirie) and that he felt kind of awkward bringing up another alliance type deal with the knowledge it goes up against his plans, and doesn’t want to make any promises to me and wants to quickly change the subject.
  

Or I am completely over-thinking it.

I told Tom how Jamie reacted and he found that to be quite funny, and told me he would talk to Jamie later in the evening, also agreeing I shouldn’t bring it up to quickly again, as that may sketch Jamie out, and we don’t really want that.

Me and Tom also spoke about making sure to make everyone feel like they have a voice in what happens, and to make them feel at ease to let them get more quickly acquainted to the idea of the alliance. Which won’t be too hard, but Tom agreed.

So I’m definitely excited that it worked out that I got an alliance with the peeps that I enjoyed talking to most from this tribe. So that’s pretty cool. I haven’t spoken to Tom since last night, so I will ask him how it went with him. Cause of course it’s still in the developing stages.

I see that Cirie is online right now, so I’ll go and talk about it with her. I tried to contact her last night, but she was clearly drunk so I decided to keep it to myself till today, haha. It’s not ideal to have an at-times drunk ally. But she’s proven her worth to me, that I trust she won’t fuck anything up.

Ofcourse I’ll still talk to Sierra and Matty a bit more, but won’t bring up anything until I heard from Tom how it went, or if they bring it up. Will also tell you guys how that went.

Welp, I need to go now as my AIM is exploding right now and I didn’t want any current convos to interrupt my thoughts from what all happened last night. And it took me twice as long thanks to my laptop and proboards acting up just barely. But I hope you guys like it. Definitely expect another confessional soon.

[Kimmi]

EPISODE 6: Crumbling Ideologies

I wanna start this confessional off with how terribly sad I am that Ian is out of the game. Me and him were such good allies and told everything to eachother. He was completely robbed by the tribe swap as he had a lot of control about the situation in our former Barra tribe. 

Ughh, this is such a stressful situation. Me and Big Tom are now talking. I asked him if he had spoken to Sierra and Matty about the plan, and he said he hadn't. Me, being a bit weary about him not bringing it up asks why. In an careful way ofcourse. Tom then said that Matty, Sierra and Jamie all liked John more then Cirie. I was kind of confused at first on what he meant by that. But he literally means by that that Cirie shouldn't be included with the alliance (John either) because we want the alliance to feel natural. And if the others don't feel comfortable working with Cirie I can understand that it won't feel natural then.

So I was quite sad, because me and Cirie have created a very good bond throughout this game, and it breaks my heart that I am even considering breaking my allegiance towards her. But I also need to remember what's smart. 

Here are my 2 options

• I align myself with Tom/Sierra/Jamie/Matty obviously forming a majority. Then excluding Cirie. 
• Keeping Cirie by my side, and having to awkwardly tell her she isn't in the alliance.

The latter would be dumb, because Cirie is smart and wouldn't stand for that. But if I were to go for the first one (which I obviously will) she'd start asking questions, and I'd then have to lie to my girl Cirie, which would break my heart. I didn't mind lying to Debbie at all because she was such a non-entity to my game-play that I didn't feel any emotions or whatever lying to her about the vote. But with Cirie it's a completely different story considering our backstory.

So I wish we continue winning the challenges, so that I won't be asked the question by her, like: 'Who are we voting for?' or 'Did you still talk to Tom, and what did he think?' because I literally wouldn't know what to say at that moment.

I will ofcourse stay close to her, and if I were to make the merge then there is always Crystal/Joaquin to work with on the other side. But I feel as if with Ian being voted out, the old-Barra alliance may be crumbling, which is sad. But I can't hold onto what could have been, I have to adapt myself to changing circumstances and not hold on to crumbling ideologies from the past. And I feel like if I take this chance and go with Tom/Sierra/Matty/Jamie that it could work out well, and that it's quite lucky that I found myself in such a circumstance to still be able to be in an alliance with people that I like. But it still hurts about Cirie. Kind of like how it felt for Rob to vote out Grant, it just hurts. But hopefully we keep on winning and that doesn't have to happen. 

Cause in the round prior I only told Cirie I had the idol. So it's just so shitty that it works out like this. It's a blessing in disguise for sure!!

But I definitley need to grab this oppertunity, because I approached Jamie last round, and because he cut it off so awkwardly, I didn't mention anyone to him. And Tom not mentioning any kind of alliance thing with Sierra/Matty ensures that noone thinks that Cirie was apart of the original plan besides me and Tom. So the others won't have the feeling of 'we left someone out' or whatever.

I'll definitley keep you guys updated on how this situation unfolds itself. 

PS. Tom keeps on mentioning how intrigued he feels by everything I have to say about my interests and stuff. Which is cool, I love how vocally interested in stuff I have to say.

[Kimmi]

I am a paranoid mess right now!! Here's how stuff are going:

Tom/Matty were excited about the idea of an alliance. Jamie wasn't online at all today. But it seems like it's the general consensus that Cirie will be voted out. Because Matty doesn't trust her for some weird reason.

I have been talking to Sierra a little bit, we were talking about who we all liked from our tribe and stuff, and I was telling her: 'I heard Cirie was being really paranoid so idk about her.'. Trying to not make it over-bearingly obvious that me and Cirie are together.

I have been acting like I kind of resent Cirie towards everyone to make sure they see that her and I aren't particularly close. Because everyone wants to vote her out. ESPICIALLY my new alliance.

Sierra mentioned to me that Amber has the idol for this round, so she was sketched out about voting for Amber incase the idol were to be played. Which is understandable but a pretty weak excuse for this early on in the game.

And plus, Tom is trying to extend the asking of the other peeps. Which is a bit suspicious to me. Cause I was all for the plan, but he's not really showing any action. I love the guy, but it seriously makes me think that they are using me for their 5th vote.

So then I spoke to Tom, he's for sure voting for Cirie. This makes me kind of sad ofcourse because I love my gurl. And I was tragically about to put Cirie's name down...

UNTIL!!!

DUNDUNDUN!!!

Cirie was just talking to me. And I had to come clean, it was killing me having to keep secrets from her. And I was telling her because of my knowledge that Amber has the idol, that she should try and convince Amber to use the idol on Cirie, so that Cirie's votes can be cancelled. I was 'supposedly' telling Cirie I was working on Tom and Matty, I actually wasn't, but I needed to sound like I was trying my best to keep Cirie safe. 

But then, out of fucking nowhere Amber comes in with guns blazing and tells me she is going to use the idol on Cirie to vote out Sierra!!!!!!!!!!

Amber was then telling me that she has a group chat with Tom/Matty/Jamie/Sierra in it, and that they have been talking about getting me out after Cirie. They have been trying to trick me into thinking I was on their side. 

Ofcourse I know that it wasn't only them playing me, but it's enough reasoning for me to debate if I wanna switch sides. Because by AMber saying that declares literally everything.

-----Why Tom never actively tried to make the alliance
-----Why Jamie acted so weird after I asked him about an alliance
-----Why Matty/Sierra are so over-whelmingly nice.
-----WHY ALL OF THEM ARE ALWAYS VAGUE ABOUT EVERYTHING I ASK

With only Matty and Tom showing a bit of enthiusiasm about my ideas.

Amber was mentioning that Sierra was calling the shots over on the other side. Like the fact that Tom already had the alliance, but was just lying plain to my face really aggrivates me.

Amber told me that they wantred me out after Cirie, and I said that they said the same thing about her -which is true-. 

It all started coming together at that moment, like what I already explained above. I had my head so far up their asses that I couldn't see straight and I was setting my goals for people like Jamie/Matty/Sierra/Tom. It literally seemed to perfect to be true. 

Gosh, I cannot believe how blind I was with Jamie/Matty/Sierra. But I am still questioned by Tom though... like I don't get why he'd make such a good bond with me. Guess I'll get to know that after this round is over. I'll keep you guys updated on that.

So here is the new plan:

• Me/Amber/Cirie/John vote for Sierra
• Tom/Sierra/Matty/Jamie think I'll stupidly vote out Cirie -what I was stupidly first considering (yes PW's, you can hate on me for that, it's deserved)
• Amber plays her idol on Cirie. 
• Sierra is blindisided. And me/Amber/Cirie/John have the majority. Yay!

Gosh, so much has changed. Like you guys seriously just expierenced my debating stage. At the beginning of this confessional I was still leaning for Cirie, but am now totes for Sierra. 

My mind is a mess, I've always said it was. But this confessional is the proof of that, haha.

So I really, really hope that this works. Then me and my girl (Cirie) can live on to fight longer. And be in the majority. 

But I am so glad that I told Cirie they were planning on voting her out, otherwise I wouldn't have been shoken awake from my delusion. So this is fucking awesome!! Can't wait, this is going to be the best blindside EVER!! :-D

[Kimmi]

OMG!!!!! PARANOIA OVERLOAD FROM EVERYBODY!!!

THIS IS THE CRAZIEST ROUND I EVER, EVER EXPIERENCED IN MY 4 YEARS OF PLAYING THESE GAMES! JESUS CHRIST MAN!!

Cirie just called Big Tom out in the group chat about lies made and stuff. This is going to be a special confessional, featuring all my magic maneuvering to make for certain Tom thinks I am onboard for getting Cirie voted out! I think it's seriously masterful, hehe. Hope you like it host: Keep in mind, that while I had this convo I knew about the Sierra vote already and was on-board with it. SO these are all lies. 
Big Tom:
Hey Kimmi
Can I talk to you?

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Hey, whats up?

Big Tom:
You bein honest with me right?
Because this be feelin weird to me
The day of the votes
and no one be talkin much
I knows you be close to Cirie so I can sees why you would be hesitant to votes against her

Kimmi Kappenberg
I am indeed close with Cirie. But I spoke with you last night, and knew my place. I love ya bud, and I appreciate our bond, and plus we have a majority. I'm not going to be stupid, you can trust me on that! I have been screwed over enough times in the past by voting with my heart instead of my head. And I don't want to make that mistake again.
But I've spoken with Sierra/Matty/Jamie, they all sayin they are voting for Cirie as well.
And I can say to you right now I voted for her, so that's for sure 5 votes. I can send you the vote I made if you want.

Big Tom:
No I believe you
Do you know if Cirie be voting Amber?

Kimmi Kappenberg:
She told me she was, and I told her I was as well. But she's like really sketched out, and I feel sooo bad, cause I feel really bad lying to her. :-/

Big Tom:
She thinks I wants her out
If an idol be played correctly
I will go home

Kimmi Kappenberg
I heard Amber has the idol, do you think she'd use it on... Cirie?
I dunno, that seems really far-fetched imo. Amber wouldnt be so dumb to give up her oppertunity to play the idol for the entire game, you think?

Big Tom:
it be possible to do a split between Cirie and Amber

Kimmi Kappenberg:
I don't know where John's head is at though. What were you thinkin?

Big Tom:
Look I trusts you
100%
There be only one idol
Either Amber or Cirie will get it played on them
there be 6 other people on this tribe
If Cirie and amber be together they will vote against someone
if john be with them he will vote with them
assume it is sierra
matty, sierra and jamie will vote together against cirie like they says
if cirie gets an idol played on her
sierra goes
that is if John be with cirie and amber
if not
we both could vote ambr
and amber would go in a revote
if amber plays idol on herself
cirie goes
no one else needs to know
just you and me

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Oh wow, I didnt think about that. That could be really smart. You think it's worth a shot?
If Cirie votes for Amber, then that means we could then without her knowledge use her vote to make a tie, just incase yaknow. Would that seem smart?

Big Tom
Exactly

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Yeah, that'd be f-ing epic if Amber uses her idol!
But we need to make sure Cirie does vote for Amber though! Right?

Big Tom:
Apparently Cirie is making a public post
That should make her intentions very clear

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Omg, seriously?
What is she all saying?

Big Tom:
She hasnt said anythin yet
She told me she was making one
You remembers I be tellin you I hear about an alliance discussed between Cirie, John you and Jamie?

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Yeah

Big Tom:
Was there any truths to that?

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Not. at. all.
I dont think I even every spoke to Jamie about John, that was complete BS.
Who said that in the first place btw?

Big Tom:
Jamie

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Well, I can yet again tell you right now that I did not say that to him. I can send you every discussion we had, I'm literally willing to do that to prove its BS.

Big Tom:
The thing is
Jamie told me Cirie approached him
Cirie denies it
So far I have no reason to distrust either
I just chose to trust Jamie in this instance because he has been upfront with me a lot more than Cirie has

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Well, I also believed Jamie to be an up-front guy. But this doesn't sound very upfront. Cause I swear that I never even spoke about such an alliance. Honest to god!

Big Tom:
You havent
I believe that

Kimmi Kappenberg:
What Cirie/Jamie have done I have no clue, and I honeslty don't know why they'd include me without my knowledge. Makes me pretty mad tbqh.

Big Tom:
Here is what I suggest.
Let jamie matty sierra vote together
probably on cirie
john's decision is upto him
I aint sure what he be thinkin
no matter who cirie and amber vote
we can vote amber
only one person can be protected by an idol
the other goes
unless you not be wanting to vote amber

Kimmi Kappenberg:
I personally don't care for Amber. So I say we do it.

Big Tom:
You sure?

Kimmi Kappenberg:
Yeah, or did you think about something else?
And btw, dont' worry about Cirie, she's being petty. I never knew her like that. :-/

Big Tom:
That be fine
I not worried about her
If you votes Amber
with me
I thinks either Cirie or Amber will go
if you don't I thinks Sierra will go

Kimmi Kappenberg:
I'll vote for Amber. Don't worry about it! I understand the paranoia, but trust me I will vote with you!

Big Tom:
Ok

Kimmi Kappenburg:
Just changed it
Do you have your vote in?

Big Tom:
Making it now just now


[Kimmi]

Those are obviously all lies. Because this is how I am voting:

Me/Amber/Cirie/John vote for Sierra

Tom/Sierra/Matty/Jamie think I'll stupidly vote out Cirie -what I was stupidly first considering (yes PW's, you can hate on me for that, it's deserved)

Amber plays her idol on Cirie.

Sierra is blindisided. And me/Amber/Cirie/John have the majority. Yay!

Point blank. Everything I told Tom up above was all for show. Because I know how he's playing, and I ain't likin it. But I didnt want him to disturb the plan, so i had to make it seem like I was still blindly following him. I personally thought I did a pretty good job.