Jeff's Judgments - Finale Time

[Jeff]

(I just now realized that I have CBS All Access and I should have just screencapped Jeff moments in Australia for my images...oh well!)
(Also, my thoughts for the remainder of the game will be here, like how I have to pee very badly right now)

So, made it to the final 4. Honestly never thought I would be sitting here because, at the beginning, my chances just looked so bleak. I'm not even sure how I got out of Penedo let alone any of those swaps. It's by the grace of God himself that I've landed a spot in the final four and hopefully the final three.

Going into this round, there was absolutely one thing I was hoping for...the final immunity to be a sort of puzzle. Not only is that the case, but I also got the sort of race to the finish style challenge I was hoping for. I think this is a toss up for any of us, but if there was ever a type of challenge that was my element, it would definitely be this one. Barring no cryptograms show up, I am hoping to post a great time here and I will definitely need it after all the things that have gone down this round.

(I'd first like to address that I am truly sorry to anyone taking offense to my comment in my last confessional and I also feel terribly sorry to the PW who leaked info and is paying the price for it, but, even though this is an online game, I have spent so much time invested in it and taken time out of my personal life, work schedule, and otherwise in order to get myself to where I am and if I lost this game because someone decided to cheat and reveal information to a cast member that wasn't supposed to be, I would lose my mind. I'm sure you would also not want that done to you and viewers have the privilege of watching the game for their own viewing pleasures, so I would hope people would know that it just is entirely wrong to leak info, friends or not. The comments made could have ruined my game, but now that action has been taken and Chelsea is aware of it, this could also cost me my game because now she's upset. It was a lose-lose situation for me, seemingly and I'm going to be devastated if this game ends for me because of those terms. So that is why I addressed it and I'm just hoping this was the only time it happened and it hasn't been a season long thing.)

Now that that's out of the way, I'm getting ready to do this challenge. I don't know all it entails, but I'm assuming (and hoping for) jigsaws and sliders. If a word puzzle shows up, I will deal with it, I suppose, but those aren't my strong points.

I do feel like I'm in a do-or-die situation right now, mainly because of the issue above, but I figure I already have two votes coming my way this round from Sierra and Joaq and I'm hoping that I can have the safety of the necklace around my neck because I really do need Sierra out of here if I want a clear shot at winning this thing. I'm so, so close and this ending challenge is all I could have asked for...I can't afford to blow it here. Losing wouldn't be the end of the world, I guess, but I don't want to take any chances that I won't be sitting in that final 3. I'm just hoping I can pull out this win, put immunity on my resume, and sail to the final 3 and get to plead my case to the Jury because that's all I truly want in this game...there is too much sappy crap happening in this game and I think it would be right that a villain walks into that finale and has a shot at that title, because honestly, all this uppity "ILYSFM" bullshit has really driven me up the wall. I'll play along, but prepare for the claws to come out if I have this necklace around my neck this round. I have a lot of sass and people haven't really seen me this game, they've seen a part of me that I've chosen to keep under wraps for the sake of my game. What better time to win this necklace than right here? I need it. I want it. I'm hungry for it. And I'm going to give it my all.

[Jeff]

Holy crap, ya'll! I was expecting like jigsaws and sliders...at the WORST, cryptograms and word puzzles. Show up and find out they are all like brain teasers! Oh hell! Like, let's do endurance instead! LOL! It was like throwing a soccer player into a handball tournament and expecting him to not use the part of himself he is best with. I felt like I was sitting there for hours just looking at the same thing trying to find a solution to the same image...THAT I DIDN'T EVEN UNDERSTAND! Just sitting...staring...I felt so worthless and there were a few times I just felt like I was already doing so poorly and there is no way I could possibly win that challenge after that first puzzle that I almost felt like throwing in the towel. I still don't think I have a shot to win, but those last two puzzles were breezy for me, so I'm trying not to put myself out yet. Who knows, maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised! All I know is that I do not want Joaquin winning this thing.

If Joaq were to walk away with the necklace, of all people, I then know I'm heading out the door unless he is willing to do me a huge favor, which I doubt. I don't know. Honestly, Chelsea probably already wants to kind of vote me out and if her options are either myself or Sierra, I have a feeling I know who she is siding with. If Joaq is available, at least I know Chelsea will want him out. Worst case scenario is Joaq wins because I don't think I would have a shot at that point of convincing anyone to not vote me.

We will see. You never do know in this game. I'm just hoping that if I can't get out of this one on a 3-1 vote for Joaq or Sierra, that I can get the tie and win my way into the finale. Obviously a straight vote would be ideal, or me winning immunity, but I'm trying to be realistic here. Maybe I can see what scores others got to see what my chances look like, but I honestly wouldn't be surprised if I got dead last!

Hoping for the best.

[Jeff]

So, my goal this round has been to get rid of Sierra. I didn't see how this would be possible without at least putting me in a tie breaker because I didn't think Joaq and/or Chelsea would want to vote against her. If I had that necklace, I would have pushed hard for it, but alas, that isn't the case and I'm in a very precarious spot right now. I wanted to try to get Chelsea to vote Sierra and force the tie, but honestly, I feel like my chances are good going to final 3 with any of them, so to put my game in jeopardy just to get rid of the biggest threat of the three doesn't seem like a good trade-off. But there is just something in me that feels like if I went to FTC and lost to Sierra, that I would regret not even trying something to get rid of her. I mean, who knows what could come of the FTC and I have a good shot at winning, but I only have two locked in votes from my perspective: Shane and Crystal. Tom possibly, but that might be it and I think he will vote less on friendship and more on gameplay, but I could be wrong. I think I have a shot at everyone's votes except for maybe Ozzy and I'm hoping he hasn't spoiled Steph at all. But on the way out, Steph said she hoped I would win, Shane and Crystal both want me to win and I think, based on relationships, that I could probably get Kimmi's vote if I plead my case well enough.

Here is how I think votes will break down:
Final 3 = Jeff, Chelsea, Sierra:

Kimmi: Chelsea/Jeff (likely me if based off gameplay)
Cirie: Chelsea/Jeff (Chelsea based on past friendship?)
Jamie: Jeff/Sierra (I think he likes me and maybe he would have respect for the move I made on him/Sierra and his friendship helps her)
Ozzy: Sierra (I could potentially see him voting me if I explain why I did what I did and he respects gameplay, but prolly not)
Shane: Jeff - no question
Crystal: Jeff - again, no question
Tom: Chelsea/Jeff (Could go all 3, but he was closer to Chelsea and I and I think he would vote based on gameplay, so me)
Steph: Jeff (I think this is heavily weighted in my direction, but she could also go all 3 based on relationships)
Matty: Sierra (I would hope because of the caliber of player he is that he wouldn't vote based solely on relationships, but long shot)
Joaq: Sierra (POSSIBLY me if I win him over in questions, but I wouldn't hold my breath)

If I'm being generous here, I could see me getting at least 6 votes, but if I'm being realistic and leaving room for shifts and blunders, then I could see this being way too close, possibly a tie, and even 6 votes for Sierra.

Final 3 = Jeff, Chelsea, Joaq:

Kimmi: Chelsea/Jeff (likely me if based off gameplay)
Cirie: Chelsea/Jeff (Chelsea based on past friendship?)
Jamie: Jeff (Likes me and gameplay)
Ozzy: Jeff (I feel like, unless he hates me, that he wouldn't want to vote for Joaq and he would respect gameplay)
Shane: Jeff - no question
Crystal: Jeff - again, no question
Tom: Chelsea/Jeff (I'm still going to say this would be weighted in my favor but could go either way)
Steph: Jeff (I think this is heavily weighted in my direction, but she could also go all 3 based on relationships)
Matty: Jeff (I think without that strong bond in Sierra, he wouldn't really have another option but to vote me)
Sierra: (could go all three and I wouldn't be able to tell ya based on how pissed she would be)

In this scenario, I feel like I win hands down...like a blow out pretty much. As long as I keep my questions real and on point, I feel like a lot of people wouldn't be able to stomach another option honestly.

So that's my breakdown and it's clear the better situation for me. I'd love to go to the end with Joaq and Chelsea because I don't possibly see how this goes out of my favor regardless of ill feelings. I would plan to use the outer game friendships against both Chelsea and Sierra and that could bode well for me a bit, but I'm also afraid of splitting votes with Chelsea in a Sierra/Chelsea/Jeff final 3. But the risk of me going against Sierra in a tie breaker is so high and I honestly don't know if I'd rather take the risk and risk getting 4th place, or if I'd rather at least make it to the Final Tribal Council and risk getting 2nd place or even 3rd just to avoid getting voted out.

You know, I am all for playing things safe, but I also came here to play and play hard and I would hate it if I let fear of getting eliminated or fear of people being upset with me ruin my chances of having a landslide finish as the winner of this game. This is all absolutely worthless thinking if I only have one option, but I've been pushing the fact that Sierra has a lot of friendships and running scenarios with Chelsea and making it seem like Sierra will win regardless of who the final 3 is if she is there. I still think Sierra has a strong chance, but only if the Jury votes based on friendships. Basically, Chelsea sent me a list of the run through she was thinking of in terms of Jury votes and she sent me one with the final 3 being me/her/Sierra and then one being her/Joaq/Sierra and I don't know if it's because she wasn't willing to vote out Sierra to get a better shot at the win, or if it's because, as of right now, the eliminated person would either be me or Joaquin.

Anyway, I finally get a message from Chelsea and she's worried about Sierra's chances now that she actually wants to force the tie between myself and her. YES!!! Finally, I got Chelsea to flip it. But she did say "I'm not supposed to vote Sierra" and I'm trying to figure out what that means LOL. I honestly feel like this is one of those times where I can either submit to the situation before me and just take the easy way out just to say I got farther, or I can take a HUGE risk and attempt to change things for myself simply to make the ending a good one for me. I think Sierra is my last big obstacle in this game and if I can get her out, whether that's through a tie breaker or not, then I think this season will have a happy ending for me. I'm waiting for Joaq to come around to talk with him and see what he is thinking because, if I can get him to vote Sierra too, then this will be best case scenario. He seems to still like me and he wanted Chelsea out instead of me, so I'm hoping he sees value in taking me to the finale and I'm going to BS as much as I can to him about votes and how I think he would have the edge from his fallen allies plus the fact that Sierra would surely vote him in the finale if she left. We will see. I've BS'd a lot of things here in this game and I can only hope that I can do just a little bit more in order to take my fate in my hands and make this happen for myself.

I think, as scary as it is and as risky as it is, that I should probably take this chance to try and win this game outright for myself. If I can win in a TB challenge as well, one more thing to put on my resume. Let's just hope this isn't the stupidest decision I made this season...but I'm going to assume I've made worse!

[Jeff]

I think I am realizing that my biggest opposition and struggle this whole game has been the other people and how much value they have put into their friendships within the game and outside of them. I don't think I've ever been in another game where people have put relationships so highly that they are also willing to lose the whole game in order to keep people happy. I'm not going to say I'm disgusted by it because it actually makes me happy, but now I feel so villainized because of the fact that I feel like I'm the only one who is not playing that way. I respect that gameplay and I am hoping that everybody else will respect mine. But I am going to understand if people choose to vote based off relationships and not gameplay and I would not be surprised if Chelsea walks away with this win. It would be hard for me to swallow, but in the end I guess I did it to myself just because I was not willing to be open enough with people and if that is my downfall and it's not the way that I played I guess I can be okay with that.

[Jeff]

I made my move and I'm getting a LASHING from Sierra. Chelsea always does this where she tells other people what is happening just to make it seem like she's working with people. Telling Sierra about the Ozzy blindside and nearly costing us all and now telling Sierra everything about me wanting to vote her. I mean, stop being so wishy washy. I don't want a person like that to win this game because she hasn't done anything I would deem worthy of a win.

I am hoping Joaq isn't lying to me, that Sierra is still voting me, and that Chelsea is refusing to. If this goes 2-1-1 and Sierra leaves, this will be good for me I feel. If Sierra/Chelsea vote Joaq to prevent Sierra going, then that would be absolutely best case scenario.

I also run a major risk of myself being turned on finally for running my mouth and I leave 3-1...and I will have to be okay with it. Obviously I am hoping that won't be the case and Joaq seriously is with me on this and sees I'm trying to save him, but at the end of the day, I came to win this thing, not make friends and if I have to vote out and betray anyone and everyone to get to the end, I will do it and you bet your bottom dollar I will be owning my game at the end of this thing.

I will stand by what I did 100% because I came to play and I came to win. Case and point. I had fun and although these last few rounds have been stressful, especially this one today. I'm nervous beyond belief, but I'm just using all of this as a learning experience.

[Jeff]

I just made the stupidest decision I have all game...took too big a gamble...

[Jeff]

I am surprisingly content...I feel fine. I feel like I did what I sought out to do. I'm a bit sad, but I'm perfectly proud of everything I've done. Can't wait to read viewer lounge.

[Jeff]

I'm so mad at EVERYTHING that has taken place since the FTC has started. So, so, so mad.

[Jeff]

I posted logs in Jury, so you can read those afterward. If you didn't think I was voting Sierra until a minute before deadline, then you're being ridiculous and trying to cover yourself. It was pretty evident.

And don't call me delusional. I had my finger on this game and what was happening since round 1 and I played accordingly. YOU are the one who blew up my game and I had no shot because of YOU.

If you're going to be loyal to a group of people, then don't screw them over multiple times.

What I wanted to say to Chelsea in response to what she said in Jamie's thread.