Episode 7: There is Some Sort of Marathon Involved?

[Matty]

I feel like a need a little bit of a detoxing after last night. It was literally 3 hours of figuring out the vote and chaos. Luckily I wasn't involved in much of it. I was able to sit back the majority of the time and let the events transpire around me. Again, the reason we voted Kimmi was because we were worried Amber would either play the idol on herself or would be telling the truth and be playing it on Cirie. Well it turns out we were overthinking it a little bit, considering the final result, but in the end the right person got iced.

A big threat and a fun person to talk to, you will be missed.

Kimmi obviously was not very happy about getting voted out. Her post in TC about not respecting us as players and stuff is extremely hypocritical though imo. She was lying to us about the vote just as much as we lied to her. Tom was trying to save her and she basically spit in his face. The vote wasn't even supposed to go towards her until she brought herself into this mess. That is just my opinion on the whole situation.



The alliance offer was also something that was serious but I can definitely understand why she didn't think so. Honestly it was an awful idea on my part to tell both Kimmi and Amber we could make an alliance. I should have filled them both in when each of them said something to me, or at least filled on of them in. That way the convo they had where they found out they were both fifths wouldn't have happened. 


I feel really stupid trying to help Amber up until this point. I know Sierra wasn't a huge fan of her, but I was still hoping there would be some way to work with the both of them. Obviously I was VERY wrong, not expecting the deepness of the hatred between the two from a previous game (which is so stupid in an alias game). I talked to Amber after the vote where she accused me of lying to her, wanting to get rid of her, pregaming, and other things. So that was fun. 

What bothered me the most about all of this was her accusing me of trying to get rid of her. Lying, I can't say I didn't. I really downplayed Sierra and Tom wanting to get rid of her and I obviously didn't tell her the vote was being switched and left it at voting Cirie. Even the pre-gaming thing, while it's not true, I can at least kinda understand when she found out who Sierra was and who I talked about as being friendly with in the ORG community. But me WANTING to get her out? I was going to have none of that.

So I tried adopting that cool personality I was supposed to have. There were a lot of times where I just wanted to say I was never the person who wanted to get rid of you, Tom and Sierra did, we switched the vote last minute, how she has been lying to me this whole time, etc. But I held back. It made my answers looks stupid in my opinion, but it is better than spilling out everything that happened. I basically left it as I was trying to keep her the entire time. At no point did I want to get rid of her, I did truly trust her. What I told her was all the truth, but she was having none of that. 

Didn't leave on the greatest note.

So yeah. That and solely that literally wanted me to target Amber over Cirie if we lose this next challenge. It's actually kinda sad it took me this long but oh well, better late than never.

Now here is the thing that worries me. We are at 13 people right now. In Tuvulu I saw this exact same challenge. Head to head endurance basically. They also did the challenge at 13. I'm pretty good at endurance (as long as it isn't 24 hours #triggered) so I'm not all that worried about doing poorly. Even if we lose it isn't going to be the worst thing in the world because we can vote Amber or Cirie off. However I did bring up the possible idea of throwing the challenge which was promptly shut down because it isn't in the spirit of the game. I guess I can agree, mostly because I don't want to bore the host or PWs with us just not trying in a challenge. I'd like to think I try going all out in these and try my best not to hold back.
But I'm not going 13 hours here lol, sorry Jaclyn.


Ok, but back to the being worried part. There has only been one tribe swap all game so far. In Tuvulu a swap happened in this exact spot. Granted that was because of a twist, but I'm still worried. If a tribe swap happens and I am with Cirie and Amber, I am so incredibly scared and worried. They'll blab on the alliance, they'll try to get rid of me, and it won't be good. So I'm basically sitting back and hoping that there is no tribe swap and if there is I can form whatever bonds I need to stay safe. 

I really hope Steph is ok on her tribe and that she hasn't given up on the alliance of us. After Amber betraying me I would be pretty sad if Steph joins her. I don't see it happening, but ya never know. Jaime also still seems to like Steph and hopes we can get together at the merge. So I have hope there that the old Novais gang may be able to pull something off if we can get back together. 

While I really hope Steph is ok, I have no idea what to think of Ozzy. I did like talking to him, but he seemed so aloof and idk if I every had a great relationship with him. I'm also not sure if other people have made great relationships with him though, so there is always that. Idk what we'll do if we get back together, but it should be interesting.



Jaime's internet took the worst crap in the world at a really awful time. He wasn't around for any of last night which was why he voted for Cirie. I was panic messaging him to come on and telling him I will explain everything that happened the next day. Well it looks like Sierra told him before I got a chance to so it's not too bad. He seemed pretty ok with the results, he was surprised Amber turned on us like she did. I still whole-heartily trust Jaime and I see no reason not to yet. He's been my boi and nothing barring him lying and betraying me will change that.


Tom felt pretty bad about the last night or so because of everything that has been happening. He has basically been acting as a scapegoat for Cirie's hate which I really appreciate considering I am the one who wanted to target her in the first place. He made sure to tell me that he still trusts me and that he likes me and everything. I told him the same thing and I was being very truthful about it. Love Tom and I hope we can work together for a while yet.




The chaos that was yesterday really did bring the three of us closer together. I like talking to John and Sierra so I'm glad this little group was made. Sierra was the target and John was the one who was betraying people, so on a strategic standpoint this actually works pretty well. Socially however they are also some of the more interesting people in this game, so very fun to talk to.



And finally Cirie. I need to try mending this bridge that I basically burned by lying. I "lied" to John about being willing to vote Tom if everyone else was going to, but obviously no one else did so I doubt Cirie will be heartbroken over that. Her hate is still directed at Tom so I am hoping I can take advantage of that, but she obviously is not a big fan of me and will probably be willing to flip first chance she gets. 

I'm glad I was able to get all this down after yesterday. Now I am just hoping the challenge isn't too bad and that either there is no swap, or if there is I can easily rebound. I guess we will see soon enough.

(PS: I gotta get my like game back up. I've been slacking recently and I'm not sure how to fix it)

[Jaclyn Schultz]

count this post as me retroactively liking all confessionals

i just haven't been paying attention to this site the last few days oops

[Matty]

Jamie Newton
she is like this
wait a minute

LOL

(Jaime referring to Amber)

Man this guy is awesome

[Fabio]

That swap in Tuvalu was awful #RIPKenney

[Matty]

Jun 22, 2015 19:01:36 GMT Amber said:

But the other tribe will find out about the pregame alliance Matty admitted to.

The whole keeping it cool thing is a little hard when this keeps happening.

ANYWAY, back to what is actually happening in the game.

We lost the challenge and, against what may be a popular belief, no we did not throw the challenge. How can someone look at Jaime's score and say that we were throwing the challenge? How can someone sit out of a challenge and, in Cirie's case, do the worst on our tribe in the challenge and say we were trying to throw it? I was being 100% honest saying I didn't want to throw it out of respect for the game and to make things more interesting for the viewers. It just turns out that Jaime wasted 8 hours of his life to essentially try to keep Amber or Cirie in in. 

That obviously isn't the reason why he did it, but that would have been the result had we won. It does actually hurt a little bit to see that he put so much effort into this challenge when the 2 possible results were us winning and Amber and Cirie stay around while or us losing and getting to send 1 of 2 chaotic people home.


Anyway, after the loss the initial plan was to just get rid of Amber because she refuses to even talk on AIM and only posts lies and OTT statements to the board. But as a group we did come to a certain revelation.

 

Cirie HAS to have the idol. None of us have it and we know Amber can't have it, so that means Cirie does. I trust everyone is telling me the truth about not having the idol, I literally don't see a reason to not to. It would make things easier and get rid of any paranoia. What is Cirie going to do with the idol?

Well there are 7 people on our tribe right now. 5 of us are working together again 2. That means we can split the vote. a 3-2-2 vote is very likely here. The question then becomes who is the best person to give 3 votes to; Amber or Cirie?

Well initially I still wanted it to be Amber. This has unfortunately grown into a personal matter and I absolutely hate her attitude about it. She said she may even quit, but I knew she wasn't going to give us that satisfaction. 

But Tom brought up a good point. Cirie is the bigger threat socially. Amber can at least be seen as crazy and hopefully people don't believe her if she starts spewing again. Cirie actually talks and has gotten me to like her on a number of occasions. She is a social threat and has an idol. Why not force her to play it? If she does great, Amber goes. If she does not, then she goes and one more person with idol eligibility will be gone. 

Now I tried to talk this over with Sierra and John. John would really prefer to not vote for Cirie. He still thinks that she would work with him and give him info, comparing her to Sierra and my Tom. The thing is, it's not quite like that. Cirie is kinda crazy and probably knows John flipped on her. She isn't going to work with him or us moving forward. Yes, I like Cirie more than Amber too, but this vote isn't exactly about who we like the most. This vote is based on who is the worst person to come into a merge with.


Cirie can get people to like her, Amber can't. Even if we merge next round (which may or may not happen, I've checked archives and the time varies) who is Cirie/Amber going to flip on us with. Jeff and Chelsea? Supposedly they would work with Sierra and Tom again at the merge, and hopefully by extension, Jaime, John, and I. Crystal and Joaquin? From what I heard Joaq wasn't the most active of people (even though he did the best on his tribe in endurance this round) and idk about Crystal. Steph and Ozzy? Idek if I should pair them together. I trust Steph to never vote for me at least initially. I fully intend on trying to work with her again once we hit the merge. I'm sure Jaime would as well and I just have to hope she didn't make any additional super close bonds. So even if we merge soon, I'm not sure who would flip on us. Granted I can be 100% wrong and the new Penedo tribe vote together as a unit. If that happens well looks like I'm going to need to start winning these individual immunities. 


But back to this round. It's going to either be Cirie or Amber going. Now as a group we need to organize how this split goes. If I get eliminated because of a math error on a split I may have to shoot someone. That's it for now, hopefully everything doesn't go to poop.